Chapter 1 (title..nanti dulu..tak leh nak pikir)

CHAPTER 1

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? it isn’t love..it's like..
Is it there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty. Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them? It isn't love, it's pity.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of? It isn't love, it's a lie.. so what is love?

My personal opinion about love..love is a mysterious phenomena that no one can actually explain it..well..there is something that we can say about love..such as.. Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply that it hurts? Then it's love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you there?
Then it's love. Would you allow them to leave you, not because they want to but because they have to? Then it’s love. Would you give them your heart, your life, your soul? Then it's love... Now, if love is so painful, and tortures us so, why do we still want love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it that we all long for? This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why? The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. Even people who are not having it wish to experience and share it with that special someone….

This is a love story, the people in the story did not ask nor seek for it.. love came, swept them away and throw them back hard on the ground… love that was built by incident, feelings that were developed by just spending time and sharing things about life.. they teach and show each other what love means by mere actions, mere actions that fill up the missing gaps in life and complete their incomplete puzzle to what they really want & seek in life, but was it theirs to keep? Is their love strong enough to make it to the end?

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“yang..i nak pergi cari kain for our baju…u free tak tomorrow?”

“I tak free laa…busy..ada meeting and presentation..tak per laa..u pergi jer laa beli..i ok jer..just choose jer laa color apa apa pun”

“but it’s our baju nikah yang…takkan u tak nak datang tengok and pilih sekali..it’s our wedding not just mine..” pujuk nya lagi…

“I said I’m busy kan!u pun tau I busy…u go ahead jer laaa…I ok jer…” Daniel meninggikan suaranya sikit…

“yeah ok…bye…”

“bye”

less than a year to go for their big day…Daniel..a metrosexual kinda guy who works as a financial consultant in one of the biggest financial institution in Kuala Lumpur..age 30..fair and tall..square shape face..well build body and he walks with such confidence that you thought he was born with it, the only child in the family, born and breed in the Kuala Lumpur, a city boy you can say… a master holder in business administration, earning a very ‘comfortable’ income, meticulous on how he spend his money, well organized person and his life is his work. But he is a well balanced man, his weekends are spent with good friends and family members, puts his family as priority…all in all… has very impressive credentials as a man and most people might say a ‘husband material’. And for sure a great guy like him has a partner and the ‘lucky person’ is called Natasha. He loves Natasha, a girl who was chosen by his family … they met by ‘accident’, which actually was a setup by both families about a year and a half ago… but things turn out well between them despite the setup and they have been engaged for about 6 months now..

Natasha…a medium size girl but with an hour glass body shape…has shoulder length straight black color hair… has quite fair skin and blessed with smooth skin with a little black mole on her back…bubbly and chirpy most of the time…friends love her....soft spoken, modest, humorous in her own way and always smiling.. she wears specs sometimes due to her astig and wears braces…she is someone who is easy to fall in love with, even strangers did! A very family orientated type of person, a degree holder in Bio Chemistry and currently working as lab technician in research centre in KL. She is also the only child in the family… her time is spent mostly with her friends & family… You can say that she is a wife material as well…

“guess what”

“he cant make it again?” replied Tanya..Natasha’s wedding planner which happened to be her close friend now

“yup..whats new kan” sighed Natasha..

“I teman kan u k…u nak pergi mana? Bila? Ehh..u nak cari apa ahh? Ehehe…”

“u nie kan..i nak cari baju for the nikah laa beb..i was thinking jalan masjid India kot..situ banyak choices and price pun bearable”

“ok jugak tuh? Boleh I pergi cari barang jugak… Bila u nak pergi?”

“anytime when u are free laa…u pun banyak kerja jugak kan?” Ujar Natasha

“errmm..ok ok..what about Wednesday…ok tak? Then kita pergi tengok wayang sekali nak?” pujuk Tanya

“sounds good…its funny huh…I just got to know u bout few months back but we seems pretty close..i tak tau nak cakap macam mana..but I really appreciate ur friendship Tanya, thank you so much”

“dah dah dah…don’t get emo with me..hihihi..no worries beb…I pun pernah bercinta dulu…I understand…so ok lah..this Wednesday k, I gotta run now…ada incoming call..u take care beb..bye”

“bye”

It’s funny on how things work out in this world..there is a saying ‘sometimes, a stranger can be your best friend’ and that what happens between Natasha and Tanya, they met when a close friend of Natasha recommended Tanya to be her wedding planner.. They hit it off the moment they met, despite having the servicer-customer relationship, they bonded well together as they have the same interest and basically same wavelength in everything … Tanya has been in the business for many years now…she was a wedding planner at a very young age even before she got married but now - she’s a divorcee, her husband married another girl without her knowledge during the 2^nd year of their marriage. That changed everything about her especially her perspective in life… now…her goals are different than before…last time it was all about making profits with her business but now…it is all about making people happy and satisfied with her services because she finds joy assisting and planning for people for the biggest day of their life - their wedding… the joy, the love and the happiness she shares with her clients make up for her feeling of loneliness and hurt she experienced with her own love life..

“tasha, u nak baju color apa on that day?”

“tak sure lagi..but I was thinking macam grayish macam tuh..ada I nampak tadi…u rasa ok ker?”

“jom kita pergi tengok balik..let us put on your skin and tengok macam mana. Daniel punyer skin tone pun macam u jugakkan?”

“lebih kurang sama jer…I think it is on the other side of the rack..”

“ehh..ok laa tasha..the color is nice…ini belum masukkan lining lagi…sesuai sangat…and furthermore tak ramai orang buat color nie during nikah..mostly is white…I suka color nie”

“itu laa..i pun dok pikir benda sama jugak…asyik-asyik putih jer I tengok..so I wanna do something different…” Natasha said it with a small sigh…

“hmmm..dah k..he is busy…nanti esok lusa senang hidup u nanti..biar laa dia kerja keras sekarang ni dulu k beb…be patient k” pujuk Tanya lagi..

“Tanya…I tak pernah harapkan duit daripada dia...satu sen pun I tak pernah mintak dekat dia…and I bukan jenis perempuan yang demanding…but is it wrong for me to have some of his time? Some of his attention? Some of his…..i nie apa Tanya? I bukan girlfriend dia…I nie tunang dia…salah ker Tanya?” Natasha berkata kata sambil menitikkan air mata nya..

“dah dah beb..come here…sabar k…hopefully lepas kahwin nanti ok laa tuh..korang pun masih belum get to know each other betul betul lagi pun kan..so both of u tak tau what others like or dislike” Tanya cuba menenangkan Natasha sambil memeluknya dan melapkan air matanya

“I tak mintak banyak Tanya..i just want a bit of his attention..itu pun because I want to get to know him better and for us to build a strong foundation together…tapi dia macam endah tak endah jer…and he leaves everything for me to decide..tengok lah macam hari nieh..”

“I understand that dear..i’ve been there with my ex husband..i sangat lah faham perasan u…hang in there k..nak kahwin nie macam macam dugaan…dah dah..tak mau nangis..karang balik kita menangis hehhee..”

“balik nangis sesama? Kenapa u nak nangis jugak?” tanya Natasha dalam kebingungan sambil membersihkan mukanya

“err..saja..i pun dah lama tak nangis…” jawab Tanya dengan selamber…

“ heheheh” from tear…they both burst into laughter….

On the way back…

“jap jap… I lupa nak tanya..u dah ada photographer ker belum nieh? Kalau belum you ambik contact i…”

“ I was suggested by my friend to take this guy…so esok lusa I akan jumpa dia…my friend is very happy with his work… not like photographers nowadays suka buat extreme editing…this photographer tak banyak edit the pictures…according to my friend..dia touch up jer but not editing so that the picture takkan hilang dia punyer originality quality…so I’m kinda interested…”

“apa nama the photographer tuh?”

“I don’t know beb…I lupa nak tanya..hihihi…but nanti I tanya my friend”

“u nie…u nak I teman u ker tak nanti?”

“ehh..its ok laa..this one I think I can do it by myself… thanx for the thought tho…”

p/s - cerita ...SHE... bakal disambung jugak...sebentar yer..cerita nie masuk line dulu heheheh...